For those who have been keeping up with my blogs, sorry for the delay of sorts. Summer has caught up to me, and I’ve been swarmed with work for other companies. The good news is school is back in session soon, and we can resume in seeing the people we haven’t seen all summer.
I’ve been wanting to talk about something on this blog for a VERY long time, and I feel like it finally needs to be said. Whether you’re in high school, college, or beyond this, it’s something everybody can relate to.
Recently, I’ve discovered that people I used to trust had been talking behind my back and saying some pretty awful things. They were people extremely close to me at one point and broke my trust by spreading some pretty awful opinions about me, all of which led to some really false statements about my personality, my life at school, and my life in general.
Now I know this really shouldn’t be said in a blog post, but to tell you the truth, it needs to be said. What words that you might write in a group message about anyone, just someone that you pretend to be friends with, is not okay. Words might seem like they don’t hurt in person, but it took a long time for me to come to terms with this. They hurt more than you ever know. Words, in fact, were one of the couple reasons why I considered dropping out of my college all together within the first year of enrolling. Words are why I had major anxiety and a lower GPA than expected the first year. Words are why I took to blogging, because certain issues just need social media attention.
A pro tip to everybody that has done that in the past, regardless if it was to me, or to another individual–think about if you were on the flip side of the conversation. Think about the nightmare it is to open your computer and see random messages, to see people you considered near and dear to you to leave your side and never talk to you again, to know that you’re no longer welcome in your supposed home. To those who have had the pleasure of never needing to experience this, congratulations. You’re one of the luckiest people in the world. You never need to know the feeling of wanting to curl up in a ball and disappear.
With that being said, I hope you enjoy your weekend, as I plan to enjoy mine. Remember to come to terms with your past and relish in your future plans with others. Always be kind even when your thoughts aren’t.
As always, xoxo.